sayin goodbye wasn't so good this time.
i'll figure what it was about
i'm stitching up this soul again so nothin can fall out

and when the returning turns into me again
and you stand inside my door
i'll pull the mending untill it breaks
and watch what hits the floor

then we can see
what words were ceased
and which heartstring held them back
until then the mending will silence well
all those shifting, ranting, half-living things
wanting to breathe, storm, and shout.

~misty leigh

HE says: I apologize that all of this is so painful

while I think we both long for and enjoy our time together we both realize we serve a vital purpose in each other's life but it also creates much pain because it is not how or what either of us what it to really be

I apologize for the pain and suffering

Neither of us seem to be strong enough or willing to endure the pain of a final goodbye

I do love you

You and I have helped each other thru some tough times and have been able to stay the course in spite of great odds

You are a wonderful person, a wonderful woman, a wonderful mom and a wonderful friend

Thank you

SHE says: When two realities exist - nothing is quite real... then the heart shouts - 'oh, yes it is!'
What is real? Nothing can say it - but everything shows it.

You are a good man, a great father, and a soul giver of comfort and pleasures.

All of this has a price. And we are spinsters.

no worries.
sadness is not so sad anymore.
you hide in the joys of my heart.

HE says: it is a worry and I want to bring you joy not pain or sadness

as I near the next fork in the road in my life's journey I reflect back and see happiness but realize I need to minimize the pain and sorrow I cause as there is enough of that already

I have not managed my life very well

I love you and wish you nothing but the best

you have been very good to me thru the years

SHE says: where there is love there is sadness.
you have not inflicted any pain.

i know i am on the list of yours to let go.
i can feel it.
i am apart of you - and you are trying to let go of everything
to test your load... to project relief...

you opened your life for me. i couldn't ask for more.

at some point, the world, this life, gets heavy...
and i find my self surrendering to its selected graces.

i grab a breath - and relax in the falling... that is what I do.

nothing is at it seems.
and everything is at it seems.

you owe me your honesty.
that is all. remember? i asked for that ahead of time.
from that standpoint all is love. no matter if goodbye mingles in the mending.

you are the grace in life. the mercy.
remember that about me.

TO BE CONTINUED - or not.