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United States Wednesday, September 19, 2007 - 22:19MistyLeighToo:
I was at a place for need of empowerment. Already comfortable with my sexuality - but her music seemed to offer it a place to channel... tune into, I mean.

I was always present in my mind - rarely daydreamed... watching the happenings, the people, my breath... and the music broke into my hardshell and gave me a resting place - a world. When I'd walk to the bus stop in DC the trees would sing with her music and everything was better - safe.

Then as time went by I wanted to know more about the artist - the artist I somehow drew a common ground with somehow and secretly envied (and i was never jealous of anyone) - can't explain it - how bold of me? to assume sisterhood with her? I then longed for her to express herself with Tash in her life... as I have a daughter as well....

Something so odd is this - in the back of my mind was this bit of voice, imagination?, knowing that she was being called out - questioned by thousands in dreams, and daydreams, and with chats along the year's course by fans on buses, on bikes, in the corners of the bedrooms and in parks ... and If she retired it would be like a death of a poet... and also - how strange was it that if i never saw a concert or met her - then that too would be a secret grief.

It would have been equal to the grief for Princess Diana.

I am sure that what this means is she represents truths in myself - and has turned the lights on and pointed at the monsters, smiling at them, disarming them or throwing them a stick... and leaves when she wishes.

The Myra Ellen would be most intriguing to meet. Small talk or none... somehow a moment would reveal that in my simpleness... i am strong and filled with potential.